I often talk about following your dreams and doing in life only what we want to do. I have spoken of moneyless travel and I have lived an unplanned life. I even took the time to justify why I don’t get a real job.
Last week I started a job in which I wear a tie and smart shoes. Did I just sell out on every one of my principles? Am I a massive hypocrite?
Let me explain. I am in Turkey. More specifically, I am in Istanbul, the sprawling city of fourteen million people that is over three times the size of Turkey’s capital city. I came here with the aim of living in an old and interesting city, relaxing, and earning enough money to get by on a day to day basis as I planned what to do next. I do simple things that make me happy like walking on the islands, climbing castles, brewing my own wine, and making peanut butter amongst many others. But quite simply, Istanbul is not for me. It’s too busy and it’s not the old city that I dreamed of.
Last week I started thinking that it is time to move elsewhere. Out of the blue, I found a job that offered a decent salary until the middle of June and I took it. The job was originally listed as a sub-coordinator, an organiser of teachers for an agency and it’s short contract sounded perfect. Unfortunately, in the two days between me accepting and starting the job, it changed. Turkey is a disorganised country and that is quite OK. You must learn to go with the flow and not fight it.
The first six days of my new job have involved me getting dressed into smart shoes, trousers, a shirt, and a tie, then doing nothing whatsoever. I’ve drunk tea and chatted with some friendly people, then I go home. Tomorrow I hope to have something a little more fulfilling to do.
I now take a step back and look at what I’m doing. Am I doing what I want to do?
No I’m not. But yes I am. Istanbul is not my city, thus I am doing something about it. This job will enable me to go onto something else that I feel truly passionate about. It’s a stepping stone and I am grateful for it. I am excited for what comes next.
Did I just sell out? I don’t think so.